What is this? this is records of my feelings, records of my thinking, records of my life. enjoy(:
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HI. i am THE GIRL SITTING ON THE FENCE. I dont take sides(most of the time)and i find it extremely difficult to make decisions.
But, i still am that bubbly, funny, warm friend that you can get.i love GOD. i like badminton, reading, studying (since its a must, why not enjoy it??) and so on...
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Friday, October 9, 2009
I CANT TALK. NOT FOR ANYTHING. WAY NO.
WOW.
i am serious my mouth just seems to ZIP shut DONE. not even a whisper. NOTHING. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?! am i studying too hard??? maybe its like a total POST STUDYING illness or something. AHHHHHHHHHHHH i totally hate it when i get shy. oh dont think wrongly. its not for guys. NO. its for a MERE GIRL. hallo???? whatever happened to 'talking easier with same sexed people'???? HUH???? gosh. like serious. i had like WHAT 10 OPPORTUNITIES????? ahhhhhhhhhhh ok that is HISTORY. DONE.
hello again. this is the calm totally composed non blabbing non angry JOY. hi. ok its friday i am really happy cause well only 1 DAY LEFT. WEEKENDS ROCK MY SOCKS OFF. ok. XY dreamt of ME last night!!!!! HOW SWEET RIGHT???? NO. boohoo. she dreamt that i was drunk.... COMEON such a cute innnoncent SHY girl getting into alcohol. TOTAL NONO. hahahaha. she even ACTED it out. of course not in front of me... but YEA. still very sweet of her:)
OKAY. I AM STILL ANGRY TOTALLY MAD AT MY SHY, QUIET SELF. comeon!!!!! i have to be an extrovert! well, at least TRYYYYY to be one! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. you know when i was walking home i was like SCOLDING myself OUT LOUD???!!!!!! ah. see how sick you can get. i dont talk to myself. its weird. like i treat myself as threee persons: ME, MYSELF and I. ah. actually... come to think of it i do talk to myself.... at night like before i sleep. SEE its so quiet and lonely in one room i have to resort to making myself seem like another person??
'ok.... put the blanket on the side' 'hey i did that already' 'well DO IT AGAIN' 'urgh FINE'
*after putting blanket to the side*
'ok now sleep try at least' 'I AM TRYING but i cant with YOU talking' 'awww come on we are the SAME PERSON you can totally block me out???' 'URGH stop talking i am trying to sleep'
*resort to singing a song. in my head*
'IT DOES NOT WORK. ' 'fine how about counting..... 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 ........' 'AHHHHHH ok not working. bye.'
*blocks my other self out of my head*
SLLEEEPPPPP. finally.
ok i am thinking that you are thinking that i am a total maniac. just so you know..... WE ALL ARE. i think everyone is weird. really. like i think people who talk to themselves are weird (and i do that). i think people who pace back and forth are weird. i think people who use the computer are weird(like WHY do we have to waste our time typing stuff when we can use the PHONE???) etc etc. OH GOSH SO STOP BEING SO JUDGEMENTAL PEOPLE. :)
BIG QUESTION: does staying in an air-conditioned room make you fat??????? hmm i wonder.
sitting on the fence girl ( I HAVE TO LEARN TO COMMUNICATE) <3
