crazy. over. you. i havent gone crazy.but over you?i hope not.haha i am SO HAPPY TODAY. seriously. i love the feeling of satisfaction when you finally get something that you have been looking for since like forever. THANK YOU JESUS:)i found it. i found it. i found it.
that rings in my head like every minute. I CANT BELIEVE IT. but you know, they will never know, no one will ever know what 'it' is, haha but i can just imagine your expression when you know of it.. haha YEP, know that is running through my head. but they will never know.YOU will never know, that i am/was crazy over you.YOU will never be crazy over me.THANK YOU JESUS.hah you can see my JOY?????? haha yes.JOY vs. HAPPINESS.choose one, its difficult i tell you, it really is. but i would NO DOUBT choose JOY. not because my name is JOY but because JOY is being happy in God even when times are tough, being satisfied even when you have nothing with you, having the courage even when trials slap you in the face, its about having the persevering spirit even when you feel like nothing can possibly happen. i know why my parents named me JOY. i dont plan on like boasting about myself or anything but i tell you something- i am a miracle child. NO I AM SERIOUS. i was born even when no gynaes wanted to take my mum in. WHY?? only by God's grace wa i born. Aside from the fact that i am supposed to bring JOY to my family, they want me to have the qualities that God wants me to have. I was born miraculously for a REASON. one i know not of yet. MAYBE i will do something big in the future, who knows? but right now, i am a soldier, a special child of Christ and i plan to live that way. (HUH! another decision! :))
sitting on the fence girl<3
HELLO WORLD! I AM BACK FROM MY AWESOME SCBT(SC BADMINTON) TRIP IN KL!!!!!!
hahah yes, you can OBVIOUSLY see my excitement! I AM SO PROUD OF SCBT! especially the AWESOME sec one team!! we are so bonded now, i have NO REGRETS. it was so AWESOMELY FUN! ALRIGHT, i am going to tell you about the main things. OK???
day 1
we had a VERY VERY long ride to KL PJ Hilton, meanwhile, we stopped by some country club for lunch! Then we went to the hotel, VERY NICE. serious. ahhahaha. ok. PS. SORRY I CANT POST PICTURES! I DONT REALLY HAVE A CAMERA. HAHAHAH. ok. then we had TRAINING. the coach said, "For warm-up, run 8 rounds" and it was 15 courts. CRAZY MAN. once i heard it, my mouth DROPPED. literally. I WAS LIKE : WHAT????!!!!!! yes. so we ran and ran and ...... yep you guessed it, RAN. The rest of the training was mostly the same as here in Singapore, except the tips that the trainers--- one being Mr Ong Beng Kheong, were GREAT. they helped me alot. haha. THEN CAME THE KILLER. THE KILLER PHYSICAL. ok we had 3 stations: 1. step-ups(it was like the heght of a normal school table) 2. running(they at first said SLOW JOG. well GUESS AGAIN.) 3. footwork(pick up a racket and run for your life in a court. YES. that is my definition of footwork.) haha. OK we had to do like 3 sets which was just like putting , sorry STABBING a knife into your thighs. then the coach asks, "How about another set?" NO DOUBT : without thinking my mouth just mouthed N-O, NO. it was killing me. well most people stayed silent and you know what they say! SILENCE MEANS CONSENT. so we sis ANOTHER set. AH. AH. my heart is beating like crazy just thinking of it. ARGH. yes, but I MEAN. I DID IT. AND LIVED. looks like i have a body and mind better than i think. hahah. My dad always says, "ITS ALL IN THE MIND" now i finally believe it. I mean, its true, i would have never thought that i had the potential to do something like that, i mean CRAZY MAN. hahha. At night, everyone (by that i mean sec ones) went to Chelsea's and Gayle's room haha, you see it is boring to stay in one room all seperately hahahha. yes. we were playing gross and stuff. DONT WORRY I SHALL NOT ELABORATE. just know that it was DAMN fun. HAHAHHA.
Day 2
TRAINING THE WHOLE DAY. haha. ok main events of the training. we were split into 2 groups, exchanging excercises as the day went on. before lunch, the other group had to do 20 laps of running of 5 courts. YOU MAY NOT KNOW IT but i tell you. ITS ALOT. Our seniors came back crying and panting like crazy. SO well, everyone in our group was FREAKED OUT. i was really really scared, like they are our seniors, supposed to be better than us but and they were like that, howabout us? the it came to our turn. i just RAN. I DID IT! in a good time too! haha. All of us did not cry and in fact we were PERFECTLY FINE. hahahhhaah looks like that old phrase comes back again! ITS ALL IN THE MIND. HAHAHHAHAAAA :):):) At night, we went to Chelsea's room AGAIN. hahhaa then i learnt how to play cheat and snapjack. AHHHHHH i miss it all already. having to go to someones room, just being yourself around your bestest friends ever, watching other people's expressions, etc. I LOVE IT. I LOVE THEM. so sad its over. OH WELL soon, people will forget. i just know it. SIGH....
Day 3
We had a friendly today so we had light training, played 'touch and go' (so they call it haha. in my mind it is rotation. hahahah) ANYWAYS. yes, training was light but i was quite tired. then we went to play with KL's national team. SO SCAARY. well i was quite relaxed playing with this boy (prob my age or older, with MUCH better skill), who somehow reminded me of my friend at home who ALSO plays badminton HAHA. ok. but i lost badly cause i played a total defensive game. HAII. the worst part is, my coach said, "GREAT JOB. you played a very good game!" You would probably think that i would be SO happy right??? WRONG. i knew i did not play well. AND i watched my surroundings when playing, she did not even glance or walk over to my court, unless of course, she could see from like WHAT, 5-6 metres away????? anyway. then i got a chance to play a second game after waiting for EVERYONE to finish playing, yea i was last. THIS TIME, i know i played at my best, come on we playeed 3 sets ok??? and i know i put in musch more effort into this one, as compared to the earlier game. and my coach watched this game. She said, "You.... O-K la...." *dissappointed look* i mean i am not saying that i am very good and should be praised. NO i am just angry that if she did not even see me playing, why say GOOD JOB... and then later when she DOES see me play, say that i was not too good? i mean...... SIGH, she is my coach afterall, so i guess i listen. Its only right:) At night, we watched Coraline together in Chelsea's room hahha. I WAS DAMN SCARED. OHHHH i have to tell you. we planned on sleeping over then i was squished in the middle of everybody. haha. and Shawna and Gayle were breathing damn hard and LOUD. hahah YOU KNOW, its like the aircon except you can hear different tones??? hahhaha dont worry guys i am not making fun of you, in fact i think it is DAMN cute. hahah. I COULDNT SLEEP hahahhahaha
Day 4
TODAY was PLAYDAY.... hahah . we didnt have any training and went bowling !!!!!!!!!!! hahh i was LOUSY.... HAHA. yes. but it was just the AWESOME cheap trill! hahha. then we went shopping, walked around ETC. hahha I FELT so sad today, cause it was like the last day ever, i just basically soaked in all the atmosphere---- the amazing friends around me, their laughter, more jokes, their smiles, gossip, you know its just INDESCRIBABLE happiness to sit with a grup of your best friends just chilling talking and LAUGHING your ass off. HAHAH. i love being around them. YOU KNOW, around true friends, you have nothing to hide, you are free to be yourself and they accept it. they accept your weirdest habits, your grossest thinking. When you dont have to hide behind clothes or money or a beautiful face. its simply MAGIC. seriously, i am smiling just thinking of it. hahha imagine you see a girl smiling dreamily at a computer, you know that that is me. haha.
AT NIGHT, the weirdest and scariest thing happened. Apparently there was a drunkard walking about on our level. DAMN FREAKY. we the sec ones decided to sleep over cause we were so scared. but shawna, charita and i had to go back to our rooms (at the other end of the level ) to take stuff. haha so we took Gayle's old racket(weapon) and slowly, quietly crept out, bending down everytime we walk past a door. HAHA it was really comical, we were like stupid spies DA
well, that is about it for my trip, actually, i dont think i benefitted the most in terms of badminton skill level, i think i just enjoyed being with the AWESOMEST FRIENDS IN THE WORLD--- Chelsea, Gayle, Shawna, Charita, Pheobe, Sarah!!!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU GUYS TO THE MAX.
FRIENDS ARE AMAZING. only if you pick the right ones.
sitting on the fence girl<3
Hi all. :) Dont worry i am not in that all serious and 'I learnt alot' mood today. :) Tmr SCBT is going to KL for badminton training trip. i am really REALLY excited. :):):) yes I PACKED. gosh. I sincerely hope all of us will take hold and try our best. LOVE YOU ALL. wont write for about a week!!!!!!!!!:):)SMILE.sitting on the fence girl<3
READ THROUGH ALL OF THIS POST. YOU WILL LEARN A LOT.hi all. yes. its me again. i love reading through blogs. totally. ok so cause we have a scbt blog right, then someone form the sec3s posted a post trash-talking us sec 1s in June. ok it is not exactly trash-talking cause that would mean that it was all false. but no, it was true. OK its true that i as a captain, did not tell the others to do what they were supposed to do, simply because of a stupid reason--- i was scared, scared that they would find me weird and OVER CONTROLLING. and so on. but it is true that some of them did not train how they were supposed to. they were lazy, ungrateful. but i have a part to play too, i did not teach them. i had to wait for the seniors to do it for me in a totally emotional team talk. but that (i think) did the trick. we as a team are slowly improving, in terms of relationships, attitude and character oh and of course skill. but we have a LONG way to go and not that much time. I hope that the others including myself will strive harder. SCBT is an awesome place for us to nurture ourselves as people. Badminton is not merely a sport. NO SPORT IS MERELY A SPORT. if it was, then , then we would not be continuing on this journey. cause if it was MERELY a sport, then there would not be this love for it that i know that everyone has , somewhere inside. i sincerely hope that we will train harder, push each other on, be closely bonded(so that these will be out bestest friends), inculcate in ourselves through a self learning process, the values that should be inside of us: diligence, perseverance, leadership, RESPECT, and so many more. this may totally seem like a stupid model reflective essay that one reads in an advertising pamphlet but NO. this is true heartfelt feelings from the "sitting on the fence girl". Next year, the road to champs are going to be difficult(lots of sweat, lots of pain but lots and lots of satisfaction), but you know, that is what friends are for: to stay by your side when you cry, to lend a soft shoulder, to push you higher. Everyone expects a GOLD or SILVER or BRONZE from us, but at the end of the day, none of these counts, all that does would be the lessons learnt, the friendships made, the one final person you become. the medals are simply the icing on top of the cake. (is that the metaphor?? haha). LOVE YOU SCBT. NO DOUBT. SCBT FTW(in ALL ways possible).MAN do i have a lot of things to write about. i have learnt SO many things today. SO SO MANY. i watched a show called "Beautiful Girl". its about a fat girl being beautiful. in it there was this song, lyrics goes:when i believe i'm beautiful,then you'll believe i'm beautiful,i am here to tell all the world,that i'm a beautiful girl.sure enough, go ask anyone ANYONE on the street:'what is a beautiful girl?' they would say:'Angelina Jolie, Heidi Klum'i am not saying they are not beautiful. they are. they damn right are. but why do we need 'MODELS' in our life that we have to follow?? OH MY GOSH. i just thought of something!!!!!!!!!! ok 'models' as in the pretty ones who strut down a runway. why name them 'Models'?? ever wondered??? like why give them the name 'models'? because we have to want to be like them? MODEL: a standard or example for imitation or comparison (from dictionary.com) why must we follow those 'models'? are they what we define as BEAUTIFUL? no. i 100000000000000000000% dont think so. NO WAY. as they lyrics state it. as long as you believe you are beautiful, it does not matter whether you have the body of Heidi Klum or face of Tyra Banks or even an old "ugly" lady. you will be beautiful as long as you believe it, others will. from today onwards, i SHALL NEVER EVER say : oh so and so is so UGLY. no way. cause yes. everyone deserves the respect, the title: BEAUTIFUL.i think i just matured a lot today. YAY ME.sitting on the fence girl<3
HEYY GUYS!!!!!!! ok i officically have A LOT to blog about today. I THINK. hhahaha. dont you just LOVE that traffic light(s) above??? i found it super cute so i posted it. well i think that just brings me to my next point. I find i get satisfied by small simple things very easily. hahhhaa I AM SERIOUS. WHO GOES GOO GOO OVER A TRAFFIC LIGHT??? yep. me. haha. yes. yes. laugh. that day, my parents came home and gave me COLOURED SOCKS!!!! WHOO HOO. hahahha. sorry there i go again. but nowadays, kids are so pampered. SORRY but its unbearable. Its like everything MUST GO THEIR WAY. they HAVE to get an IPOD or laptop for their birthday... HAI. sometimes its just too much. ok. OH YA. yesterday i had an AWESOME time with karuna! hahah. yes. WONDERFUL AND NUMEROUS PICTURES TAKEN. hahhah a. OHOHOH the traffic light thing reminds me of something. i think the primary school traffic safety thing rubbed off on me. hahah. until now, i still raise my hand when i cross the road, even at the traffic lights. yes. its a very weird habit. hahahha. My friends usually get very embarrassed to walk with me. haha like Karuna! hahha. it was damn funny! and usually, i cannot stop doing that! hhahaha. yesterday, we were walking across the road(with me raising my hand) and a lady like stared at me. hahahahahahahhasitting on the fence girl<3
HHIIII!!!!!!!! I AM IN LOVEEEEE!!!!! hahahhahaha DONT take that the wrong way!!! hahahhaha i am in love with:1. MY AWESOME NIECE!!! she is so awesomely cute! you know she can sing like 'twinkle twinkle little stars'??!!!! my gosH! except she sings it as "twinkle twankle la la la" DAMN CUTE. hahha and she goes: WHere oh where oh where is ____ ??? she fills in the blank with anyone or thing she sees! GOSH. 2. THE AWEEEEEESOME SCBT!!!!!!!!!!! not only the sec ones ok!!!! hahha but... WE ROCK LIKE FOREVER!!!!!!!!! my gosh. i cant wait for the WONDERFUL KL TRIP !!!! there are gonna be lots of sweat and tears NO DOUBT especially with all that tough training. haha but IMAGINE all that fun and photos and laughter. I CANT WAIT. :):):):)3. THE 59 SCPB!!!!!!!! hahhaa the PASSItON camp was simply AWESOME. NO DOUBTS. hahha everyone is so fun and nice!!!!!!!!!! GOSH. 4. that SOMEONE. HAHHAHHAA no point guessing!!!!! MY LIPS ARE SEALED. hahahhahahhahhhahahhahahahhahahahahhahahaHI!!!!!!!!! you know when you find someone on fb but just dont dare to add them???? ya. HAIIII...... okok LOVE EVERYONE LOADS!!!!!!!!!!sitting on the fence girl<3
HEY ALLso sorry for neglecting my blog for a while now. Its like everytime i set my mind on writing something, well i become lazy. OH WELL. TODAY WAS awesome (excluding some saddening news) we had a meeting at Kits house and DID WORK OK??!!! haha but of course nothing says 'meeting' like PLAY! haahah you must be like WHAT??!!! haha yes. ever heard???: All work and no play made Jack a dull boy! hahah so as usual we took PHOTOS!! haha SO AWESOME. you know, i think you understand yourself better when you take photos with your friends, like you see if you are creative enough to come up with new poses! LOL. i tell you if i told my sis that she would be: WHAT THE CRAP LA! hahaha so funny/
ok then a few days ago we had PASSItON camp! which obviously was AWESOME. undoubtedly! haha we had late nights and stuff but made lots LOTS of great friends and i think it was really enriching.
I am starting to see the bad side of a certain person now. SHALL NOT MENTION WHO
ok I HAVE TO BE POSITIVE. LOOK ON THE BRIGHT SIDE,
sitting on the fence girl <3