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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

crazy. over. you.

i havent gone crazy.

but over you?

i hope not.

haha i am SO HAPPY TODAY. seriously. i love the feeling of satisfaction when you finally get something that you have been looking for since like forever. THANK YOU JESUS:)

i found it. i found it. i found it.

that rings in my head like every minute. I CANT BELIEVE IT. but you know, they will never know, no one will ever know what 'it' is, haha but i can just imagine your expression when you know of it.. haha YEP, know that is running through my head. but they will never know.

YOU will never know, that i am/was crazy over you.

YOU will never be crazy over me.

THANK YOU JESUS.

hah you can see my JOY?????? haha yes.

JOY vs. HAPPINESS.
choose one, its difficult i tell you, it really is. but i would NO DOUBT choose JOY. not because my name is JOY but because JOY is being happy in God even when times are tough, being satisfied even when you have nothing with you, having the courage even when trials slap you in the face, its about having the persevering spirit even when you feel like nothing can possibly happen.

i know why my parents named me JOY. i dont plan on like boasting about myself or anything but i tell you something- i am a miracle child. NO I AM SERIOUS. i was born even when no gynaes wanted to take my mum in. WHY?? only by God's grace wa i born. Aside from the fact that i am supposed to bring JOY to my family, they want me to have the qualities that God wants me to have. I was born miraculously for a REASON. one i know not of yet. MAYBE i will do something big in the future, who knows? but right now, i am a soldier, a special child of Christ and i plan to live that way. (HUH! another decision! :))

sitting on the fence girl<3

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